the (family) ties that bind

is it beginning to happen already? so soon?
i have already found myself frustrated with my mom, who i'm living with.
maybe it's because we were both underfed and at cranky blood sugar lows, but i found myself holding back commentary and rude remarks as my mom set to rearrange everything i just (neatly) did while organizing the pantry. i was mentally accusing her of being a control freak, but then mentally shrugged when i remembered that i, too, have those tendencies.

thanksgiving however, went pretty well. i spent it in san antonio with my dad and my sister and it was mellow and casual and thankfully not a big deal. it was nice to spend a couple of days with those crazy geminis.

after coming back to austin, i found the house slightly more occupied than usual as my two younger stepsisters were staying for the night, but, after being in close and more socially intimate quarters in san antonio, being in this big house where everyone has their own tv and room to hang out in, i found walking around the house and still seeing no one kind of disconcerting. and it just made me feel lonelier than i already did.

then i received an email with an invite to a movie and a party, but due to lack of personal wheels, living way the f out, and the weather being poor for driving on the curvy hills by the house, i had to decline the invitations. but just the invitations made me feel better. though i still feel a little lonely. maybe it's the gloomy weather.

so i've set my sights on greener (however temporary) pastures. concentrating on my january travel plans which officially include a road trip out L.A. and a week long stay, semi-officially include a trip to thailand where i have a place to stay for a week, and unofficially include a subsequent jaunt to singapore, where i have an offer of a couch to sleep on. now if someone could just show me the money, that would be grand.